Learn to Love the Rain

I don't know how some of you guys know that I maybe applying to Melbourne Uni. But there is a story behind this that I want to share. Here it goes, I actually went to IDP center (place where they help you to do your applications on uni), FILLED in my application form to Melbourne. I know something caught me by then. Before that day, I was actually praying to God, asking him whether or not should I apply to this uni. (I was only given one day of notice) While I was filling the form, I can tell you I've been super uneasy! I can't concentrate in filling in the form. My mind was like flying around the place &so much images pop out in my mind. I was so confused but at the same time sure that I'm not suppose to fill in this form. Because I forgot to bring a certified copy of my SPM results, I need to go back home and get in & come back here again to pass it to her. When I get out of the center, I straight away tell my parents that I do not want to apply to this Melbourne uni. My parents was furious of course, because I had wasted their whole morning. I know I'm really spoilt & all. There are two reasons why I didn't want to get in. One of it is because I'm so use into the thinking that I'm going to Monash & going to start a new life in the campus. Another reason is because I'm allowing my emotions to take over me, and I know that it is the last pride I have in protecting myself. I bet my parents understand the reasons. They were mad of course, scolded me &all but who wouldn't be mad? I really am happy that they respect my decisions & didn't force me to get in there, Love them for it.
Well, look at the bright side now, I finally got my offer from Monash in Clayton& also got a place to live in campus! *cheers!* thank god so much...

It's been a while since I updated. Yups, my head is churning and all, been thinking too much, but unable to even express or write down anything. Maybe because all these people matters to me a lot, and sincerely, you all are like my family. When you sense the rain is coming, you can't expect us to sit down and feel nothing, that's wrong. I'm just not the kind of person that will just sit down &let the rain just pour down on me. My conscious will ask me to get up &do something.
Ever since last year, I start to have the feeling that it is a great burden to know Too much. There are sometimes I didn't want to know anything but it comes to reveal itself to you. I didn't go looking for it. (ok...but maybe sometimes I do go look for it. Hey, we r curious species& curiosity always kill!) Of course, I treat it as God's will of wanting me to know, shows that God is actually opening doors. Sometimes,I really hope that I'm not the one who knows all the haps, and just being blur in anything. But, God didn't made me that way, so... Let it Be! And be happy with what ever you know currently, whether it is little or a lot. What you know, Keep it! ^_^

I know I'm not the only one who is feeling sad of leaving this place & I know there are others that feel sad because someones leaving, and it is the main reasons that cause all the rainy days. The main reason all of us are feeling the rain drops is because we play a big part to each other a lot. It is really time for us to switch from being self-centered into Christ-centredness. We have been pondering on our own self for too long& we really need to start to think for others or even Christ. I know I have been ignoring others and even Christ, but I'm sure I'm not going to continue this. By going to Australia, I know I'm going to learn to switch my focus to Christ-centred instead of myself. I pray that all of you will join in the learning process.

Don't hate the rain, learn to love it. God created rain for a purpose. I love the rain, because I know that after the rain, it's going to be sweet, and everything will turn out fine, because God is at work. Do not let the thunder frighten you &make you do stuff that you know you are not suppose to do. Think positively!
I didn't like the name Rainoa for no reasons, it is because I like Rain. ^_^

After being able to express everything, I feel much better. And I hope that all who read felt the same way too & get something out of it. Don't know how I manage to express it, but I think it's God doing something, Love Him!
Let us not grief over how much time we have left to spent with each other but enjoy our time together to the fullest, with God in the center! there will not be awkwardness when God is in the center, Trust me! Really am looking forward to pool party, hope you do too!! *hugs tightly to everyone*

-Brigette-